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starting new knowledge
starting new environment
already full of colors of joy n pain
but i still not adapt to that condition
i can no longer endure the pain
i need to let go all the fantasies n back to the real world
please Allah
give me ur guidance
n help me out from this ridiculous fantasies
n back to achieve the better future
make me realise that i'm not a perfect person to begin with
n i'm just a person with no ability to be boast about
i'm just playing with my thought to make me believe that i'm the perfect person
n everyone adore me
but in fact i'm nobody
n people not recognise me
pity me
playing with my own heart n minds
please2
help me to get my self back
n be a better person
which is the real me....