not in the mood of writing

not updating for 4months already bcoz of lack of inspiration...huhuhu...
maybe will abndon this lifeless blog 4ever~~(think of it)...

entahla...

denial...

i begin with the imperfect me

hoping to be the perfect one in the end

but as time goes by

me myself not improving n

always behind

and now to make it worse

in the stage of denial

in the stage of doubting

in the stage of questioning

who am i?

taking solution by shutting my world out

from everything

but is it the best solution to everything

why did i think that it only make it more worse????

but denial is denial

no one can ever change it for u

unless u change it for ur self

n i never know when im going to change myself....

Hilton...

just came back from dinner at Hilton hotel..(dinner????)...hahaha...it is a buffet dinner...just pay rp130,000 n all u can eat!!!hahaha...
kartini's n white house's girls heading to bandung at 11am sharp n we went separate ways to do our things be4 heading to Hilton for the dinner...hehehe
me,jaja,tina,chin n aj wasting our time at Chiwalk karaoke n play games until 5pm while alyaa,nady n husna heading to pasar baru to buy some things...at Chiwalk i managed to half accomplish my mission..hahaha (another half will be done within next week..huhu)...
the 1st thing that we do after reaching Hilton are taking pictures!!!!!!hahaha...(pic at my fb account...)then we start our journey to spend more than 3hrs to taste all the foods that served there...n the result we managed to stay there abt 2 1/2 hrs coz every1 can't eat anymore...hahaha...so we shorten our eating time n heading home bcoz 2morrow we hve lectures early in the morning...(aaarrrrggghhhh!!!!i hate morning classes!!!)...n also the hotel gave our two fren which is tina n chin b'day cake bcoz we requested the pianist to play b'day song for them...not only he play the song the co-workers prepare a cake for both of them n the cake so yummy2!!!...hahaha...better having b'day at Hilton so u all managed to get free cake!!!!(hahaha...kidding!:p)....so i better sleep rite now coz my body already sore n i need to get up early in the morning...till then!!


p/s:i recommend u all to hve dinner at Hilton...its worth ur money! :D

chow!!!!!

start...

starting new knowledge
starting new environment
already full of colors of joy n pain
but i still not adapt to that condition
i can no longer endure the pain
i need to let go all the fantasies n back to the real world
please Allah
give me ur guidance
n help me out from this ridiculous fantasies
n back to achieve the better future
make me realise that i'm not a perfect person to begin with
n i'm just a person with no ability to be boast about
i'm just playing with my thought to make me believe that i'm the perfect person
n everyone adore me
but in fact i'm nobody
n people not recognise me
pity me
playing with my own heart n minds
please2
help me to get my self back
n be a better person
which is the real me....

fare thee well

i think its too late to watch TALENTIME but better late than never (thanks to adah for the video)...i guess every story that by Allahyarham Yasmin Ahmad have got deep meaning n it always reflects people in daily life...n also 'I Go' by Aizat at the end of this story is so so so nice n already fell in love(sorry this is the 1st time i hear it in english version)..never thought both version are good n soothing in my ear(feeling2..)...this is the lyrics for the english version...just want to share...

So long, fare thee well
The dancer and the dancing days have taken leave and fell
So turn down this bed of stone
Quench me with the deadly nightshade from the rose that you belong

The long December rain is falling now
Running down on streets to nowhere
Music is my life youre my sweetest nightingale
But I cant hear it here no more

And I go
I go

Hush now, dont shake or break
Words have fallen silent like soldiers to the grave
No matter what they do or say
Lay me on the sleepy meadow by the tracks upon your face

p/s:cried a lot watching this movie especially during the song...isk3

frustrated...huh!

yesterday was the most frustrating day of my life....(i guess everyone also)...bcoz of no electricity from 5am until late nite...(i guess???)....my routine during this disaster happen start when i woke up n found my room with the colour of black...(hahaha...bcoz no sign of light) n i made a decision to sleep for few hours..hahaha...so i finally woke at abt 15min be4 9am n feeling dizzy..hahaha...(tu tande tido terlebey)...n then by using the only source of light (which was my window) i started doing my work...not the important thing to do actually just doing some notes (besela nk dkt exam nih...cuak2...poyo jek) n hoping that the electricity will be coming soon (but i guess it not coming until....u know..haish)...so to kill the bored time i listened to the music from my laptop...when the batery dead i switch to my ipod n start singing like crazy people...(cian bdk umah ku..hahaha) after my ipod also dead the last gadget that had battery was my phone but i chose to kill my time with my housemate...we talked abt random things until we felt hungry n went to jatos to fill our stomach...n we hope that when we came back everything will be shined brightly(dh ade lampu la konon) but once again we only saw black...haish...so we lost hope n just proceed to sleep...n today i woke up with my head feeling dizzy n my eyes swollen..haish...just nice to ruin the day..

a/n:hahaha...merapu2!!!

HAPPY BELATED BUFDAY TO ATHRASH n HAPPY BUFDAY TO KAK AINUL!!! MAY ALLAH BLESS U TWO ALWAYS...

CHIAAOOOOO!!!!

Because of You....

really like this song...dont know why...enjoy!! (n also addicted to it..hahah

Because of You-After School



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